SIS...what is that?

So if you remember from a previous blog I had a procedure called an HSG a month or so ago. There were 2 abnormalities discovered with that. Now that we know we aren't pregnant they want to further investigate those before trying again.  They found a dip on 1 side of my uterus where it should be smooth & on the other side they found a spot? So they've put me on birth control & today I will have a new procedure, to me called an S.I.S. 

1. What is Saline Infusion Sonohysterography (SIS)?
Saline Infusion Sonohysterography (SIS) or Saline Ultrasound Uterine Scan is a test where a small volume of saline (salt solution) is inserted into the uterus (or womb). This allows the lining of the uterus (endometrium) to be clearly seen on an ultrasound scan. It is also known as a Saline Ultrasound Uterine scan.

With this they hope to get some sharper & higher quality images to get more understanding. Depending on what they discover, surgery may be a factor, certainly praying that isn't the case. I know it is better to check everything out before we try again...but this doesn't mean it doesn't feel like just another hurdle or trial, doesn't mean I didn't sob last night imagining all the possibilities and just wanting to have our Caden & Melody back...thankful that Robby made me stop and listen to truth and prayed over me! So please join us in prayer today, my appointment is about 1pm...I'm really thankful for your kind words of encouragement & hope over the last few months and really last 5+ years! Thankful we serve a God who has gone before us and can handle all of our emotions and I know is walking beside us...I hope you feel that too! 

Walking with hope, Abby xx

Reality is...

Reality is this round of treatments didn't work

Reality is our hearts really ache

Reality is the tears feel heavy

Reality is sometimes life feels on hold

Reality is we miss our Caden & Melody

Reality is we've been down this road before

Reality is I'll take those meds all over again

Reality is I'll do as many treatments allowed

Reality is this battle is worth fighting

Reality is God is bigger than all the above

Reality is God is still working

Reality is God always fulfills His promises 

Reality is God's plan is perfect

Reality is God has already gone before us

Reality is God has provided us with an amazing community

Reality is we will continue to Walk with Hope

Walking with hope, Abby xx

Happy fathers day

This Father's Day, I want to honor a few men in my life. 

First I want to honor my Heavenly Father, without Him I'd be nothing. I am so blessed that You reached down, picked me up and reminded me that I am Yours! Your daughter!

I also want to honor my dad, Tim, and just like my name means Father's joy I hope that when you look at who I'm trying to be, that it brings you joy, I love you! 

To my stepdad, Jim thank you for choosing to love me, my sisters and Mum the way that you do.

To my Father-in-law, Bruce thank you for helping Rob become the man he is today and thank you for holding Caden and Melody at the feet of Jesus until we can join you.

To Papa Art, thank you for coming up to a hurting 12 year old girl on valentines day, giving her a rose and asking if you could love her as a daughter. I still have that rose .

To my godfather Gordie, I will always be your Abby Abby Abby!

But most of all I want to honor and say Happy Father's Day to Rob Biggar! The days that I saw you hold our son and daughter for the first and last time until we're in heaven was one of the hardest but most beautiful things I've ever seen. You loved them so well, you love me so well and you will love our future children so well! 

I am so very thankful!

Happy Father's Day !!!

Walking with hope, Abby xx